I’ve tried masturbating before and it makes me kinda sick and I don’t like it but I can kind of get aroused in a sense when I look at porn and I used to think it was because I was sexual but now I think it’s because of the closeness
I crave the feeling that people get when they have sex.
it’s like that kind of closeness and sensuality and trust you feel with another person that you can only get by giving yourself completely to someone else. I want that so badly but I can’t do that
I can’t even be an asexual that has sex to make their partner happy because I just can’t do it it makes me so unhappy and uncomfortable